Reflection

I am sitting at my sister-in-law's house babysitting the sweet, sweet girls and I realized this is the first time in almost a week where I have had a few minutes to reflect on things. I think the last post I did was saying how I need to remember to be more positive and count my blessings. Well, things got crazier really quick and now I am hoping I am dealing with it better than I feel like I am. I literally leave for China next week and I can't even start to think about all the things I need to do to prepare. School is so nuts and I am trying to get some assignments handed in before I leave so that I don't have a ton of stuff to do when I get back.
Oh and as I was driving to school today, I got a giant horrible anxiety ridden ball of yuckiness in the pit of my stomach when my mind finally wrapped around the idea of me having to fly on an airplane over the ocean for almost 14 hours!! Ummm... I don't know if you all know this but, I HATE flying. Yup, like hate it super duper bad.
Whatever, I will get over it once I am up in the air and hopefully at that point I will be self medicated but ya nerves are on edge right now for sure!

Well what I am trying to get at is that I was really excited about conference because I really really NEEDED it... and then I just happen to have to deal with our rental house and that is a whole nother story, but ya... its sitting at home recorded and that's all I want to do is watch it.

This little urge of mine... to want to watch conference is a sign that I am still a good person and that I still am on the right path. No seriously, have you ever just got SO caught up in life that you don't even remember what its all about? Sometimes I forget to do the right things and to remember to pray and all that other stuff that keeps us connected the way we should be. And perhaps that is why my life feels so much more crazier than it should be because I am not finding the time to do the things that are TRULY important.

So all of those thoughts have been running through my head and then today I went to Cathedral of the Madeline for a field trip in art history. I have driven past it many, many times but never been inside. OH my gosh. It is beautiful. The man that gave us the tour got choked up a couple of times when he was speaking about certain things regarding Christ's life and it touched my heart. It was such a neat experience.

As I was leaving the cathedral I was driving West on the back road of it (not quite north temple or south but right in the middle) and I drove over this hill. As I got higher on the hill I saw the top of the temple come into view. It seriously choked me up. The skies were so beautiful and the fountain was on and the temple was seriously the most amazing thing I have seen in so long. It made the whole day worth it... just to see that. It reminded me what is really important and I can't wait to make the time to go. I miss it. I just want to sit and do nothing and hear nothing and just be in peace... the temple really is SO special and I am so grateful to have it in my life.

So now you have a sneak peak into what my mind has been doing all day (because I write like I think and probably speak sometimes). Sorry that there aren't any fun pictures on here and just more of me venting and blabbering but I needed to tell someone... so hopefully someone reads it :)